living by moments

less than a month to go to the end of ST2. Kinda surprised that I've
managed to make it through the last 5 weeks without much incident
(apart from illness).



this week was spent on relatively light activities. But then with me
still regaining fitness after the previous week's illness, it didn't
feel very relaxed. Was thoroughly exhausted by the navigation exercise
we had midweek (walking for hours up and down slopes in FBO isn't fun -
and its not even like I was walking in brunei). And didn't have much
sleep because of lots of stuff that needed to be done. All in all, it
feels like the tempo has upped and it's going to stay that way for the
last few weeks of ST2. Getting back into shape is going to be a
challenge.



I realise that I seem to be counting my life by minutes. Like checking
out how many minutes I have to nap before falling in in the morning.
How many minutes I have to prepare my gear before lights out. How many
minutes I have to shower and change while my armskote 2IC is covering
for me.. The moments add up, and before I know it it's the end of the
day.



to me, army life is all about this kind of living by moments. You
always have a lot to do and seldom enough time to do it, so you
prioritize and deal with the most pressing concerns first. And you try
to make the most use of every bit of time that you have, without
exception. Concerns in the army are always immediate, and so is the
desire for gratification. Which, I've found, has made me become on the
one hand more impatient and less sensitive, but on the other more
focused and less dithering. As to whether it's a fair trade or not,
it's probably too soon to conclude.



and the minutes tick by to book-in.



[domee: actually after 1 wk I think armskote i/c isn't too bad except
when there's an inspection and when we have an exercise and come back
late. Like after the navex this week. Think I was possibly the last
cadet in the wing to hit the bed that night. Sigh.

kai: think my brain might be a bit fried from last week's fever. Coz
when I was talking to u on msn I totally couldn't say anything
coherently. Or maybe it's just something that army does to ppl. But in
any case like I said, u'll get used to it lah. Dun worry so much. U're
tougher than u think..

smartidiot: haha we didn't get to do OCCT that day coz of what my PC
put in a nice way as 'an admin screwup'. But it was interesting
watching u guys hit the ground. Must have been painful though. My
platoon mates were all complaining about breakfalls after the last OCCT
they had (I was on status heh)]