the end is nigh

I'm officially into my last month of NS. The sweet scent of freedom is practically wafting in my nostrils.

Which is just as well, because I don't think I can take much more of the military life. Went outfield this week, for what proved to be a singularly boring exercise. My main contribution was to provide the ravenous hordes of LCK mosquitoes with emergency supplies of blood. For such great goals do I unceasingly strive.

The bites still itch like crazy.

Generally life has been pretty low-key the last few weeks. Doing the things I usually do during weekends i.e. meet up, read, play games, general bumming around, and going for driving lessons (at a pathetically slow rate), see ppl off at the airport, etc. The simple life. So if you were wondering why the blog's not been updated frequently it's coz there's nothing much to update.

I sometimes think about my CTC friend who passed away in a motorcycle accident. It's a reminder of the frailty of life, and it exhorts me to try and make the most of every waking moment. Which, given that I'm not a very driven person, isn't the easiest task. It's like a titanic inner struggle sometimes.

There's more to life than trying to experience everything and go everywhere. I admire people with a lot of drive and determination, but I wouldn't want to be like them. I guess I'd rather enjoy the comfort of familiar surroundings, and watch the world go by. It's more relaxing that way.

But to be honest, I do believe I'm making better use of my time now. I'm trying to be less apathetic and pay more attention to the ppl and environment around me. I'm trying to think harder, to re-energize those atrophied synapses. Bascially, I'm attempting to resuscitate all the stuff that NS gave me a convenient excuse to neglect. Since I'll be reaching the holy land of civilianhood real soon, I figure I'd better start now.