the clerk and his muscles

now that my brain is slightly less scrambled, maybe I can get around to writing some things down.

first, work: It's tiring man. Never realised how office life can be so draining. It's partly because the project I'm doing requires quite a bit of brain power, but at the end of the day I usually feel like one of the duracell bunny's competitors on those tv ads. Barely have enough energy after work to go exercise. And those are the good days. Forsee myself turning into some flabby sack by november (you should see how much food they provide for lunch).

on the other hand, I'm kind of grateful to be actually exercising my brain for once. After years of neglect, the thinking mechanisms are quite rusty; my boss has shown me that a few times already. Still trying to make myself think more clearly and critically, and if I succeed it's going to be of more lasting usefulness than all the physical exercise I can force on myself. Unfortunately, the brain seems much harder to exercise than any other muscle in the body. Maybe coz it's in worse shape?

as for physical fitness, which is quite a major area of concern, I've been getting some slight improvements. Running times have been getting better, which is encouraging. Aiming for IPPT gold standard, but that's still some distance away (no pun intended). But I still have 2 months to train, so anything's possible. Just hope I don't have to run Army Half-Marathon this Sunday; can't bear the thought of having to wake up at some unearthly hour on a Sunday, for no better reason than jostling with thousands of other sweaty bodies.

C and H wings are commissioning soon. Can hear them rehearsing their comm parade drills at the parade square every morning. It never fails to make me feel envious. 9 more months before it's my turn; seems so bloody far away. And I'm not even sure if I'll make it to commissioning. But the feeling is that, this time round, I'm more prepared to give it my best shot. Only time will tell if my best is good enough.

and everyone has either left, or is on the verge of leaving. Even though this has been pretty much on the cards for the last 3 years, still can't help feeling a bit disappointed at the thought that my overseas experience has ended. Although, seeing as how little I made of it, I probably didn't deserve anything more. *shrug*

life goes on.